30, no 29 by 30…..ONE DOWN!

30 by 30:
So, on my list of 30 things to do before I turn 30 I can cross one off!

11. Get a paying photography job. I am currently working on building up my photography portfolio. I am offering my services for free while I learn. I hope to get a paying gig sometime this year

WOO! I took pictures for this guys retirement party and got paid $60! It’s not much BUT it’s awesome! haha. 29 left! I should be able to start accomplishing things more now!

Life:
My wonderful fiancee starts work on Monday! I’m so proud of him and excited for the things we will be able to do! I hope to cross some more items off my list this summer!

Weight:
I’m doing slightly better. Except yesterday, I was bad yesterday. I didn’t weight myself this week yet to know where I stand. I might as well wait and go to weight watchers on Saturday. I’m trying to do better, I want to feel as comfortable as possible in my wedding dress! I know once we are both working and are able to buy groceries more often I will be able to eat a lot better and that will help me a lot.

I need to get back into my routine of exercise for 30 minutes on lunch and an hour every evening. I did about 30 minutes last night but not on lunch. I plan to do both today and hopefully I’ll keep it going again. It’s hard when you have a lot to do and you want to have relaxation time. But, I know it’s a sacrifice and I just need to remember in the end it’ll be worth it.

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Bad decisions apparently!

So, yesterday, I don’t know what happened but I ate a lot of bad food lol. It was so good but so unnecessary. I’m hoping for a better day today!

It won’t be as hot today so I plan to walk for 30 mins on my lunch and I plan to eat really good. Though I will have to go get something for lunch so I’m planning ahead and probably just going to buy myself a healthy choice and some fruit.

I need to stay focused. I can’t go to weight watchers AGAIN this weekend. I really need to go and sit and listen and get motivated again. I also need to remember why I’m losing weight. It’s not so I can look good (though that is an added bonus) but it’s so I can be HEALTHY!

I have high blood pressure (which may be the result of narrow arteries)

I have slightly higher than normal bad cholesterol and slightly low good cholesterol.

I need to lose weight to reduce my risk for heart disease. I need to remind myself of these things every day.

I will walk today. On my lunch and this evening and I will eat healthy foods. I know part of it is that we’re broke until my fiancee starts his job and we have little to no money to buy decent groceries. It’s very frustrating.

3 months and 1 week roughly…

left until I get married!

I have begun tracking everything and am back on track. I’m feeling more motivated finally and am finally feeling a little more at ease.

I’d love to lose 15 pounds by the time I get married. My dress fits perfect but I would feel comfortable in it if I was a few pounds less. Thankfully my dress won’t fit differently if i lose a little weight.

But I’ve doing good. Drank lots of water, not snacking as much, writing everything down, and attempting to curb any ridiculous cravings I have for bad food.

Got some photo sessions coming up and possibly one more. I’ve got to make a phone call this evening and talk to the client! I should start a photography blog huh?

Feeling better but tired…

I talked with my DR and she gave me the ok to wait for June for my appointment thankfully. Since then I have felt a lot better. I was clearly making myself nervous.

I didn’t make it to weight watchers last week because I was taking some photos for my best friend’s sister. She’s a senior this year so I took her senior photos. I’m trying to expand my photography as you may know and I’m VERY pleased with how they turned out. I have a lot more confidence in what I can do now and am excited for the next photo shoot I have. Which is this weekend. It’s a girl I work with, her and her 2 boys.

I also have a meeting next Monday about shooting a wedding for some friends who recently eloped and are planning a ceremony and reception in July. Things are looking up!

Now, if I can only stay focused on losing weight. I’ve been doing ok but not anywhere near as good as I need to be. I had 2 cheeseburgers last night. I didn’t need that 2nd one at all, it just looked so good. I’m trying though, really I am.

In other news there’s another possible job prospect on the homefront for the fiancee so I’m keeping my fingers crossed for him!

I need to update our wedding website.

Sometimes, I wish I wasn’t me.

The heart Doctor’s office just gave me a call. For those of you who don’t know/remember. My general doctor is referring me to a cardiologist because of the special case with my renal arteries and high blood pressure.

They just called to set an appointment and that’s great but a specialist DR co-pay is $55. And I can’t just spare $55 right now. I made the appointment for June 12th and she said she’d talk to the doctor and see if I need to come in sooner. I can feel my blood pressure rising since I talked to her. Not only am I nervous about the procedures I may need to get done but more than anything, I’m worried about money.

Our friends have just gotten married in Puerto Rico and are having a reception I refuse to miss on the 26th in Louisville, about 2 hours from home. This means we’d need a hotel for the night OR I have to drive home after the reception. I don’t drink so that’s not a big deal but it would be nice to sleep after a night of dancing. But, I may just have to suck it up and drive home afterwards. I need to buy our plane tickets to Mexico too.

I’m just really nervous and thinking about getting a second job, which I’m sure would just add to my stress. I’ll figure something out though. I just needed to vent and write and try to calm myself down.

No, you’re really not hungry anymore Jenny…

I just finished my lunch a few minutes ago and I was pretty hungry still. I had a lean cuisine pizza with roasted veggies on it. I REALLY wanted to go back into the kitchen and cook up one of my smart one cheeseburgers.

BUT I decided to snack on a special K chocolatey pretzel bar instead and drank some water. Now, I feel satisfied.

In hindsight I probably could’ve done without the special K bar but it’s so good! I just hopefully won’t need much of a snack later.

I exercised last night finally and man did it feel good. I want to walk on my lunch but I kind of have a lot of things to do at work so I’ll just have to make sure I do an hour tonight. I’m going to try and work out during Glee! (Yea, I’m a nerd.)

In other news I’m working on my photography skills this weekend and will be taking some senior photos for my best friend’s sister. I’m excited. I’ll share some photos when they’re done!