Sometimes you have to let it go

1555503_10100345177633485_1844004359_nToday’s blog post has 2 topics. First and foremost, this week’s weigh-in!

Saturday morning’s weigh in at weight watchers went well! Last week I was up 1 lb. This week I made up for it and came down 2.8! Leaving me at 215.8! a mere 16 pounds away from my first goal! WOO! I did not exercise on Saturday, as I usually don’t. (Tuesdays and Saturdays are my “off” days.) I did go to the gym yesterday. Switched it up a bit. Instead of heading right for the elliptical, I decided to use the treadmill for a bit. I worked out there for 20 minutes, then used the elliptical for 35 minutes.

It’s been about 3 weeks of working out now and I’m noticing the change in how I feel. I want to go to the gym now, and waking up hasn’t been as difficult in the mornings. It’s great.

This morning I stepped on the scale and it said I was 207.9! HOW DID I LOSE 8LBS IN 2 DAYS!!!! That was pre-shower. So, after my shower, and I was FULLY dressed it said I was 211! STLL! 4 lbs! I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what tomorrow morning holds in store for me! But I’ve been doing really well with portion control. The smaller plates and my food scale have made a huge difference.

In other news, I have a friend who I feel I need to distance myself from and this is something very difficult for me. She’s been my friend for quite some time and one of the few friends I thought I had here in Cincinnati. But sometimes, you have to move on and distance yourself from some drama and unwanted words.

I’m hoping to stay strong with this and hope to make more of an effort with some of the ladies I’ve become friends with over the past year.

I’m hoping my day stays awesome and goes by really fast, as well as yours!

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I’m BAAAACK!

So, for the past 10 months I tried to do it alone and I failed. I admit it. I can’t lose weight on my own.

A few things to share:

  • I’ve started a new job and I love it. I love the place, the company, the people and the job itself.
  • I’ve gained all the weight I lost, back. I weighed 223.8 at weigh in on Saturday.
  • I’ve learned I can’t lose weight on my own, I need support and lots of it.
  • I’ve grown SO much with my photography skills and am on my way to being a great contender!

So, let me tell you the kick in the pants this time. I’ve started a new job and I love it. So, on Halloween I dressed up as Minnie Mouse and thought I looked cute. But lately, I’ve started to really notice how much weight I’ve gained. I was in the break room and one of my co-workers asked if I was pregnant. There is no good way to tell him so I just said “No, I’m just big. I’ve gained some weight recently and it all unfortunately sits in my belly.” I could tell he was mortified and he tried to cover and I told him not to worry. I walked back to my desk, cried, threw out the plate of food I had just gotten from the break room and promptly went to http://www.WeightWatchers.com and signed up again.

I cried and was talking to my husband and told him I really need him to support me.

In the past 10 months I’ve learned that just by having a gym membership it does me no good. I need support. I need people to encourage me and people to pick me up when I’m down and tell me to keep going. And going to weight watchers meetings gives me that. I also have my sister and my mom and a few friends. My sister is definitely my biggest cheerleader. I’m so thankful for her.

So, here we go again, I’m hoping this is it. This time I will follow through!

 

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

I’ve been so busy with SO much that I haven’t had time to blog, let alone, eat well and exercise regularly lately. I NEED to though. I’m not stupid.

Why does it have to be so difficult for me.

Work is chaos because one of the girls on my team is leaving any day now for maternity leave and I’ll be absorbing a lot of her duties while she is gone.

Life is chaos because I’ve been taking a lot of photos and shadowing a couple really awesome photographers to learn more.

Though, I’m going to make a conscious effort today to track my food and watch what I’m eating. If my feet feel ok this evening I will go to the gym.

We went to Kings Island with work yesterday and my sandals rubbed the soles of my feet and they burn bad. It’s not fun at all.

Motivation and words of encouragement needed and welcomed.

So much to be thankful for.

I’ve been slacking at blogging and I apologize. Life has gotten in the way thanks to the warm weather!

In the beginning of the year I reached out to lots of photographers wanting to become an assistant. AKA I’ll do anything for no pay if you can tolerate my dumb questions! One photographer was really busy at the time, rightfully so – her photos are great and she’s one of the best in the city. Others ignored me but, one reached out to me. We met and in the past few weeks I’ve followed her around at 3 different weddings. With plenty more to come.

This weekend she had 2 weddings and not only did I get to watch her do her thing and help out a lot but I also got to spend time with those assisting her. It was really great to see how they think and their thought process as the day progressed.

I’m just an assistant, running errands for them, getting things she needs and etc. But, it’s worth it. I have really enjoyed working with them. It’s so wonderful. I’m so inspired being around them and being there. I know I have a long ways to go with my skills but I have hope that I can do this and I plan to work as hard as I possibly can to improve.

It’s nice having someone take time out of their busy schedule to answer my questions.

But, in all honesty, the best part is meeting all these wonderful people who have a similar passion!

 

In other news, I really need to kick my butt a little harder on the weight loss front!

 

I’ve been slacking!

I’ve been slacking on my blogging and my diet!

But, I’m back! Some awesome things have happened since I last wrote. My 30th birthday was April 17th. It was pretty uneventful until the weekend!

Friday the 19th when we got home from work there was a happy birthday banner hanging on the wall in our dining room. I remember asking EJ “What is that!?” I walked into the dining room and then from my right where our kitchen is jump out my Mom and sister, Sheryl!!! I yelled “WHAT! WHAT IS THIS! OMG!” and then I started to cry as I hugged them both. Read More

FRIDAY! PLEASE be good to me!

I’m having a really rough week and I can’t wait to spend my Saturday doing whatever I want.
EJ is having a friend over tomorrow to play video games and play music. So, I’m going to do whatever I want. Currently that is: going to a photography meet-up tomorrow morning. I’m hoping the snow is planning on staying around so I can try for some pretty outdoor snow shots. I haven’t had the chance to really go out and play and take some good wintry photos. Read More

Money’s tight…

So, we’ve moved into our own place and we love it. I love having my own place. Making it my own to reflect mine and EJ’s style’s and personalities. But, I’m broke now. This is something that’s been bugging me for a little while. So, this week, I’ve done a lot of thinking and tried my hardest to figure out the best course of action… Read More

Need routine in my life again!

Things have been chaos lately. With us moving and the house in disaray. My evenings have consisted of dinner and cleaning/organizing. Now, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE to organize. It’s weird. I love creating places for everything now that I have the space to do so. (I did not enjoy organizing, living with family, as I had nowhere to put anything/organize..my husband will attest to this.)

Anyways, I’m not tracking and I’m not exercising (although if you consider all the lifting and up and down stairs I’ve been doing unpacking then maybe…). I am eager to get back on track.

In fact, I’m so excited to go grocery shopping this weekend for the next week. Why? Because I know that the only food I will be eating is what I buy, bring home and cook. There will be NO outside influence on what I’m eating. As much as I love Grandma and her cooking. Let’s be honest, it’s NOT very healthy. It was hard to come home and if she had made dinner to resist for several reasons. I didn’t want to upset her because I know she worked hard to make us food and it smelled DELICIOUS!

My friend Pam told me to give Aldi’s a try this week as they have some new healthy food lines. So, I am. My goal is to buy enough food for the week for as cheap as I possibly can.

I’m also excited to be able to get back into an exercise routine in the evenings. I miss that energy it gives me in the morning. In fact, there’s a planet fitnes gym about a 3 minute drive from my home. I’m going to go on Saturday morning and check it out. $10 a month. I can handle that! Worthy cause too!

I will also go to weight watchers on Saturday morning. My leader is fabulous. She keeps me motivated and excited. My meetings give me hope that I can do this. I know I can, I just need to stop making excuses and stop worrying about other things and people and focus on me.

I am not losing weight to be pretty (I mean, I’m already gorgeous!) I need to lose weight because I have polycystic ovarian syndrome and losing weight will help with that, and be better when I’m ready to try and have a baby.
I’m losing weight because I have high blood pressure.
I need to exercise to help me have more energy, feel better about myself and help my blood pressure.
I’m changing my eating habits because I don’t want heart disease!

I KNOW I can do this! I keep this quote on my desktop for me to see at all times:

No matter what you think, no matter how you feel, the truth is you CAN do this!

A good weight loss last week!

Last week was really good! I was good all last weekend and week and on Saturday when I stepped on the scale at weight watchers I was pleased! I had lost 3.6lbs! I was so excited!
My husband and I talked on Friday and he said he wants to lose some weight so, on Saturday I bought the weight watchers calculator and headed to bed bath and beyond after my meeting and purchased a new scale for the house.

We’re working together on losing weight now and I’m really excited. He’s following along with the weight watchers plan with me now and I think we’ll both see even more success now.

I do need to stay on track today. I didn’t do so hot this weekend or yesterday. In fact, I’ve already used my weekly points up! So, I need to exercise every day and really track and watch everything I’m eating.

We tried a new recipe last night. It wasn’t the greatest but it wasn’t the worst. I probably wouldn’t make it again though. It was an Italian sausage soup. It had tomatoes, beans, sausage and spaghetti. I tossed in a couple cheese ravioli and Parmesan cheese. Like I said, ok, but not worth making again. Though I will say the Kroger organic whole wheat spaghetti is great. The best whole wheat pasta I’ve tried so far.

In other news we’re looking for a place to live and it’s a giant pain in the butt. Trying to find a place to live that’s got enough privacy for us and we’d like for my husband to be able to play his music and we have a cat. I’ll keep you posted on that.

In other other news I need to start working on my indoor photography skills and plan to be taking a lot of photos for free/cheap/donations in the next coming months. I’m hoping to plan something for next weekend with some friends to take some photos.  This weekend might be good. We’re going to Columbus to visit our friends for their sons first birthday.

Well, I hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Here’s a picture of my Grandma’s dog, Griz, with his hat and scarf on. He clearly hates this.

Grandma's pup.

Grandma’s pup.