I’ve been so busy with SO much that I haven’t had time to blog, let alone, eat well and exercise regularly lately. I NEED to though. I’m not stupid.

Why does it have to be so difficult for me.

Work is chaos because one of the girls on my team is leaving any day now for maternity leave and I’ll be absorbing a lot of her duties while she is gone.

Life is chaos because I’ve been taking a lot of photos and shadowing a couple really awesome photographers to learn more.

Though, I’m going to make a conscious effort today to track my food and watch what I’m eating. If my feet feel ok this evening I will go to the gym.

We went to Kings Island with work yesterday and my sandals rubbed the soles of my feet and they burn bad. It’s not fun at all.

Motivation and words of encouragement needed and welcomed.

Exercise, Life & Me

I suck….

I’ve been so terrible lately. Still having trouble getting back on track. Though I think I’m doing better than I was 2 weeks ago.

I’ll try to remember to weigh myself in the morning and see where I stand. I really wish I had the extra money to continue with weight watchers. It truly helps me lose weight, why can’t I do it on my own??? I’m going to try really hard though. I just need to keep myself from eating too much, and from eating bad things. I am going to try something a friend of mine does. Every day of the week except Saturday she behaves. But Saturday is cheat day. I’m going to try this. Starting today. I kept track of everything I’ve eaten and I exercised.

I’m hoping this will be helpful and will keep me motivated.




I’m having a terrible time staying focused with my eye on that prize weight of 199 (first big goal)

I want nothing more than to reach my 10% goal weight of 199 in the next few months. So why do I keep sabotaging myself???

I lost 3.6 pounds not last week but the week before making me 210. Then, I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 214! WHAT! WHYYYY!

I know why, really. I can tell you why in fact. I haven’t exercised since last week, I haven’t been planning ahead, I haven’t been careful and I’ve gotten a lot of candy/chocolate and they were really good.

So, I know why and I suppose that’s the first step. And for the most part I have tracked everything and you can tell by my tracking that I’ve clearly done a terrible job at eating well this week.

The husband hasn’t really been watching either. I’m hoping for us to sit down tonight and go over some of the plan together and work on measuring everything we cook tonight so he can really see portion sizes as well as remind me of portions.

I also want to throw away any candy in the house. I had enough! I don’t need anymore! My desk at work is free of it except for some candy canes but they’re not appealing to me. They’re for visitors.

I know that a large part of my sabotaging is due to living with Grandma. She’ll make us dinner and she’s old school, southern cooking. Lots of butter, adds sugar to things that don’t need sugar (like spaghetti and chili) and doesn’t see the need to make things healthy..she focuses on taste.

Well, last night she made chili. It tasted GREAT but I didn’t need to top it with cheese and crackers and I definately could’ve had a smaller portion of the spaghetti noodles and had more chili which is more protein. But, I didn’t. WHY! I was in a good mood and it was there and yummy and, oh, I didn’t want to hurt her feelings.

Grandma made dinner because she thought it would be nice for us to not have to cook dinner after a full day at work. It is nice. I am SO thankful for her. And I can eat these things, I just need to figure out what is better and measure these out.

We’re looking at a place tonight that we hope might be the place we move to in the next month or so. I know that once we move out it’ll get a little easier.

As long as my husband can get on board even further with me it’ll be really easy. And, if he doesn’t that’s fine. I’ll figure it out.

I have to figure it out. I need to lose weight and become a healthier person. I have so much to do in life and I can’t be worried about my health as much!

I need some motivation but I am so not looking forward to going to my meeting this week and seeing the number on the scale jump back up.

My plan for tonight is to go home and take a look at the things in the kitchen. I’m going to make my lunch and get rid of any food in the house I don’t need/want and then work with EJ on things we can change together.

I KNOW I can do this but it’s going to take time and effort.

Motivation, My Health, On Plan

Bad decisions apparently!

So, yesterday, I don’t know what happened but I ate a lot of bad food lol. It was so good but so unnecessary. I’m hoping for a better day today!

It won’t be as hot today so I plan to walk for 30 mins on my lunch and I plan to eat really good. Though I will have to go get something for lunch so I’m planning ahead and probably just going to buy myself a healthy choice and some fruit.

I need to stay focused. I can’t go to weight watchers AGAIN this weekend. I really need to go and sit and listen and get motivated again. I also need to remember why I’m losing weight. It’s not so I can look good (though that is an added bonus) but it’s so I can be HEALTHY!

I have high blood pressure (which may be the result of narrow arteries)

I have slightly higher than normal bad cholesterol and slightly low good cholesterol.

I need to lose weight to reduce my risk for heart disease. I need to remind myself of these things every day.

I will walk today. On my lunch and this evening and I will eat healthy foods. I know part of it is that we’re broke until my fiancee starts his job and we have little to no money to buy decent groceries. It’s very frustrating.

Life & Me, Losing Weight

Feeling better but tired…

I talked with my DR and she gave me the ok to wait for June for my appointment thankfully. Since then I have felt a lot better. I was clearly making myself nervous.

I didn’t make it to weight watchers last week because I was taking some photos for my best friend’s sister. She’s a senior this year so I took her senior photos. I’m trying to expand my photography as you may know and I’m VERY pleased with how they turned out. I have a lot more confidence in what I can do now and am excited for the next photo shoot I have. Which is this weekend. It’s a girl I work with, her and her 2 boys.

I also have a meeting next Monday about shooting a wedding for some friends who recently eloped and are planning a ceremony and reception in July. Things are looking up!

Now, if I can only stay focused on losing weight. I’ve been doing ok but not anywhere near as good as I need to be. I had 2 cheeseburgers last night. I didn’t need that 2nd one at all, it just looked so good. I’m trying though, really I am.

In other news there’s another possible job prospect on the homefront for the fiancee so I’m keeping my fingers crossed for him!

I need to update our wedding website.

Life & Me

Rough week

I’ve been feeling pretty blah this week. I’ve been semi food focused. Not overeating or anything at all, actually I haven’t been that bad. Except we had Wendy’s for dinner last night.

I’m feel aggravated and am feeling like I can’t escape the chaos lately. We’re supposed to go to Buffalo this weekend to visit my family and so EJ can dj on Saturday evening but now, we’re not so sure of that. So I know that’s got me slightly down in the dumps.

If we don’t do that I demand to spend an entire day this weekend doing stuff I want to do. I wonder if he’ll go along with it. HAHA.

I also want to say thanks to those who still read, like and comment. You keep me motivated! So, THANKS! I wish I could get some more readers. Though, I might be kind of boring. What can I do to make it more awesome here?

On Plan

La Nina?

I think that’s what’s causing this warm nearly 60 degree weather that so graciously allowed me to take my 2 mile walk outside on my lunch break today.

I’ve eaten good today and FINALLY remembered to get my 3 month tracker out for use.

I had pad thai last night and forgot the peanut sauce. It wasn’t as good and I managed to eat it all when I didn’t have to.

I feel kind of blah as I’ve managed to gain back several pounds since Saturday’s weigh in and it’s killing me. I feel terrible and I know all I can do is keep tracking and doing everything I can to make better choices each day. I’ve done well today so far, and hoping I can keep the streak going on into the evening.

Also, I’m using every bit of my willpower to not eat some of the cupcakes sitting out in the office today. 1.5 hours to go.

On Plan

Oatmeal and a banana start my day

Although this week didn’t start off so well, I’m doing my best to end it better.

Yesterday I walked on my lunch, did 90 wall push-ups, and spent an hour in the evening exercising in front of the tv (walking, lifting weights and using the stair machine). I’m definitely starting to notice that I can spend more and more time on the stair machine so that’s exciting. I’m also starting to really like exercising in front of the TV. I can watch a movie/tv show that I normally watch but I’m getting my exercise in. I don’t know why I never did this before.

I also went to the grocery store last night and saw something new I had to try. Whole grain cheerios with peanut butter! I was pretty excited. They’re delicious if I do say so myself.

I weighed myself this morning about 209. That means I’ve lost a pound from yesterday!

My meals for the day:
Breakfast was oatmeal and a banana.
Lunch is a lean cuisine chicken parmesean, an apple and grapes.
Snack is a yoplait light yogurt
Dinner is tacos!

I’m on the hunt for a “before” photo of myself around the time I started weight watchers last May. I know I have one before that, that you can really tell but I guess I’ll have to look around.

In other news I tried a new recipe the other day. It’s a weight watchers one and it was amazing. So I’ll share it with you!

Orange-Chipotle BBQ Pork Chops with Grilled Onions
Prep time:  10 min
Cook time:  10 min
Serves: 4
PPV: 5

  • 3 spray(s) cooking spray, divided
  • 6 Tbsp barbecue sauce, Chipotle flavored
  • 2 Tbsp cilantro, fresh, chopped (plus more for garnish if desired)
  • 1 tsp orange zest
  • 2 Tbsp fresh orange juice
  • 1 pound(s) uncooked lean only pork loin, four 4 oz boneless chops, 3/4-inch-thick each
  • 1/2 medium uncooked vidalia onion(s), cut into four 1/4-inch-thick rounds


Off heat, coat grill rack or a large grill pan with cooking spray; heat grill or set pan over medium heat. I wasn’t able to grill so, I baked them in the oven.

In a medium bowl, combine barbecue sauce, cilantro and orange zest. Remove 2 tablespoons of sauce to a small bowl and stir in orange juice; set aside. Add chops to medium bowl; toss to coat with sauce.

Coat onions with cooking spray. Add onions and pork to grill or grill pan. Grill over medium-high heat, turning once or as needed, until onions are lightly charred and tender and pork is just cooked through, about 8 to 10 minutes. I put my porkchops in the oven at 350 degrees covered in sauce. I put the onions into a pan on the stove with a little bit of olive oil to get my oil in for the day. Once the pork was almost done I put the onions in with the pork in the oven. I believe the pork took about 20 minutes.

Transfer pork to serving plates; separate onions into rings and scatter around pork. Drizzle each serving with 1/2 tablespoon of reserved barbecue sauce mixture; sprinkle with extra chopped cilantro. Yields 1 pork chop and 1/4 of onions per serving.

If anyone tries it, I’d LOVE to know what you think!